| Feeling utterly inadequate to be studying under the shadow of those intellectually gifted people. I need to spend almost triple amount of effort and not a millimeter closer to how good they are. And I resent how my inadequate mental capacity has also limited what I can do in my life. I want to do things OTHER than studying. I want to go out and know the world. I want to spend more time with my friends, pple that I love. I want to watch TV like other people. I want to blab on the phone without my innervoice urging myself to study. But to compensate for my incompetance I am left with no choice but to study on and on, but for what? For just that tiny little progress that I could at best pull off? Its SHIT. "I remember when I stumbled in the wind
you heard my cry you raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find you
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear you whisper through the rain
I'm with you
and as your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth" Praise you in this storm - Casting Crown |
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| I have promised myself never to give way to hating anymore but theres one type of person that I find it most difficult NOT to hate Those are the kind of hypocites who mock you for doing things that they are too weak to do themselves. It is not a shameful thing to admit our weakness. If you are weak, then LEARN to be strong. You only make yourself a nauseous shit by teasing others for things that you can't get. |
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| I knew what kind of life medicine would put me into way before I started medicine; and now I'm just living in exactly what I've expected. I've jumped on the bandwagon that won't stop for me to take a breath of comfort, and jumping off is never an option Because deep inside, I know its gonna take me to a bright and beautiful destination, a life in the service of God, a life that is so full and complete. So no matter how gruelling and tough the journey is, I will never raisethe white flag because all the strivings and patience are definitely gonna pay off....real nice But now, I need to hold on to something steady, so that I won't fall and break. |
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| Sometimes I think I'm the luckiest person on Earth. There's really nothing more that I could possibly ask for. Thank you Lord. |
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